So, here I am, thinking to myself that my life's not going to get any better if I don't tell you how I really feel. Then when I think about it, are you really worth it?
Monday was really indeed a tiring and fun day, did loads of Cny shopping goodies...
I love them, oooo the house is filled with chinese goodies food drinks , my saliva is dripping -,-
Tuesday (Which is totally today) is sucha sucha sucha bloomy day.
Didn't go for the interview thingy cos I feel something's fishy.....
Actually was supposed to go with my friend , but some stuff cropped up for her.
So I didn't wanna be alone , and she gave me this weird man's number. So I wondered...
Where will they give such good rates and such flexible hours man. Haha, totally right, I can think so much nonsense and crap when I'm alone.....
But.. I really need a job. Really really!
I need to earn all my money back > :
This is so annoying and sad . Cos I feel so pathetic.
Was actually supposed to go out with YiTing, but didn't cos I was having a mini headache,
she wasn't feeling good either.
babe, I will go out with you sooon okay, so sorry about it ! I miss you! < : ( L )
I think , going out in Singapore at times is really indeed meaningless, really really sad.
Esp , going Orchard? OHMY. Am I becoming some kind of weird girl....
Cos sometimes I feel as though staying at home is so nice and easy.
I'm so worried that when school reopens, I'll be so home sick. Ugh!
Stayed at home to groom my dog and catch some korean movies.
I totally feel Korean movies are really really very saddening for most of the shows , get me sad for nothing, I realised... I'm a very v emotional person . I cry very easily ):
(And obviously I totally hate that I'm this way ) Oh well.
Have finally cleared my clothes , but the new ones are not sorted out yet , so I will have to do it tonight before Chinese New Year comes, I'm pretty excited !
Which chinese cannot be at least 10 percent happy or someth ?
I have totally no time to upload my pictures in the camera, or maybe... they are so many that I'm so damn lazy , its like 100000 plus? Never ending . I will try my best...
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With Love, 5:37 PM
 
HellloHiHey. Its a beautiful Friday.
Went back to secondary school today with sec friends. Bring back many many pleasant memories. Saw so many familiar faces juniors and teachers .
Rain was so heavy today and it was really cold > :
Couldn't bear to use my umbrella cos ,
1st - it was new
2nd - I don't know how to put it back into the cup -,-
Okay really stupid reasons . (Z)
Ate cup noodles , which sucked totally , cos we ate it under the block and the chairs were all wet and we had no choice but to sit ): X100
Took so many photos! I really neeeed time to upload them and edit them.
Cause I look really ___ right now -,-
I really missed those innocent days where we just lived each day being so carefree. Seeing this really makes me yearn for the past..
Yet again, I remember that, I can't live with regrets, life moves on right? Just like us.... OhmyG, I don't know why, I'm just being emotional (H) . I'm just trying to get by this period. This one thing I am trying to learn is . Words can never be taken back once it is said. I understand that when one is angry , the person can blurt out words. But... It really would hurt alot alot . I just feel, a good cry is what I neeed right now ( Good for the heart too ) Very confused , now the teacher from VM called me again and tell me to come down for another interview and bring drawing materials , SHOULD I GO ? (So troublesome) Somemore at Bishan ! Ehhhhh , shall consider firsttt -,- Anyway, I'm currently finding a JOB ( O M G ) yes a JOB , so I will be WORKING ! Maybe in a dessert / ice-cream / whatsoever shop. One thing that made me happy today was.... I bought a mickey clock , so cuteeeeee! ^^ Yvonne , sorry! I really couldn't take the time to find you today cos after that I had to find my mama! I will go out with you sooon okay okay! We shall go watch movie and all! Thanks Geddy to for waiting and lending me the coins to take the bus cos my buscard suddenly went out of money (Damn sway) Sorry for oversleeping ! Seriously didn't know you were at the polyclinic alr > : Oh man, I wrote so much . Please don't fall asleep , haha if you do thank me okay -.- I am currently talking rot , " _ "  Am i devestated or relieved?
I'm not quite sure how the two can confuse me, but as i sit underneath these covers, the ones we used to share, and contemplate our relationship, I realise I honestly don't know. Am i relieved that i feel devestated? Because maybe then it means I really love you and we can slavage whats left of this. Or am I devestated that I feel relieved? Because then it means we're really over. And i'm not quite sure what comes next. ( YDTK Xanga )
With Love, 12:33 AM
 Finally am back from Bangkok a couple of days ago. Took quite few pictures. The trip made me love my country more , cos it isn't as clean and green. But the things that are really reasonable and cheap. Quite worth it though... BUT. Some of the clothes material clothes suck.. Oh well , cheap stuff have their disadvantages , ^_^ Will post up the pictures soon , I kinda am still sorting out my pictures , they are rotting -,- I have been hunting for jobs, I don't want to work on weekends man ! But don't know if its possible, seems like an impossible task unless its office work (which is dead boring) . Anyway, I'm just wondering... Should I do something to my facebook ? Or just leave it as it is. I guess.... Facebook is really totally meaningless, afterall its just some online account . I shall edit them some other day when I feel motivated about it. I just feel this story that I just read not long ago is really meaningful and true . "A huge plane which can carry bags and humans which is about 400 tons can fly. Yet just humans alone which is less than 100 kg can't even get their feet off the ground and don't even have the ability to fly. Yet this massive and huge plane can fly so high and fast due to the jet propulsion and lift, which enables it to defy gravity. We christians strive for the correct identity in christ, " The Right Relationship " and " The Right Purpose " but we cannot find them. Why? It is impossible for us to live as christians how could God ask for such a lifestyle? It is because such lifestyle is totally impossible with our own strengths , but it is only possible by God's resources not by our own. "
- Christ-likeness by Seung Hun Yang
To Yvonne : Sorry girl ! I couldn't make it to the air show with you! I owe you one okay! I hope we can catch a good movie and have a good time tomorrow! (Smiles)
As I was on my way to school, took 228 and I passed by your house bus stop, I could feel that sadness start to boil in my heart, it has been so long since I really really took a good look at it , that I noticed there are changes too. Just like us, we changed so much, that.. Sometimes I just wonder, why is it we quarrel so much, all the hurt and those words that could never ever be taken back. How time flies, just a few months, and we became like that... Really wanted to cry just then. But I know I have to hold back those tears..
With Love, 12:19 AM
 Oh my , I set my eyes on such cameras for quite a while. I just think its so "olden". Its just so vintage and nice to hold. Instead of the digital cameras which changed over the years. Z Oh man, enough of all those. Cos I can never get one now.... My mama will not allow > : I shall earn for it myself.... But I'm not really sure if I really want it a not. Fickle . Fickle . Ah enough about it, anyway, this is the new blog that I spent using the whole day doing instead of doing my wardrobe clearing, I'm surely going to be overflooded with clothes when I come back from Bangkok! I'm so excited... I know its only a few days, but I have been waiting and waiting (Insert big smiles) I'm so sorry friends to always change blog often, just can't be contented /: I will learn....... ^,^ This blog is still currently still not edited yet for some parts. The course which I applied for "Visual Merchandising" teacher call me today and told me that I can't join the course. I was quite disappointed.. Cause I really would love to take up design. Sigh, now what's left is only events / business admin. Having a high GPA would help? I wonder..... Oh man , ok I better start packing my stuff already, my mama is nagging and I feel the tension (L)
To Him: I realised.. You changed quite a bit.
You are not like before. And thats sad to know..
Isn't it sad to know that 2 couples were so sweet once and now almost everyday
they're living on cold war?
With Love, 11:31 PM
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Tuesday, February 9, 2010
